God My Savior

As I reflect on today, I am reminded of God's grace and mercy. In December of last year, I made up in my heart that I would follow the Lord wholeheartedly. I remember sitting on my bedroom floor in my one-bedroom apartment; I didn't have much furniture or much of anything but the things I needed. I knew that day I didn't want to enter into a new year without God showing up and walking with me.

Several verses anchored me during that time, but particularly James 4:8 “Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.” In that moment, I was reminded that the closer I drew to God, His word says He would draw near to me, and I wanted to be close to Him more than anything. Even when I was a little doubtful of what this would look like or what lay ahead, this rededication pulled me to the very feet of God. I no longer wanted it to be just me, I had to be all in. All God or nothing. In order to move forward, I had to give God me.

As I reflect on the last eleven months of my life, I have seen the Lord work miracles. Just to note a few:

1. He restored my love and passion for Him.
2. He has healed me both mentally and physically.
3. He has restored my relationships with my family.
4. He has diminished my fleshly desires.
5. He has healed me from sexual sin.
6. He has imparted a deeper understanding of His Spirit within me.
7. He has increased my finances and paid off all my debt.
8. He has given me the ability to be independent.
9. He has restored my sense of calling and purpose.
10. He has kept me safe from all harm and danger.

These were not just small wins for me; they were huge. Some of these prayers had remained in my heart for over 10 years, begging and pleading with God to show up and be my Savior amid everything.

As I continue to reflect over this year, I want to thank the Lord for loving me before the world was formed. I am so grateful that He keeps His promises. Not only has He done these things for me, but I have seen Him do these things in the people lives around me. This is the God who is faithful.

This draws me to the story of Nathanael in John 1:50, where he is first being introduced to Jesus and is amazed that Jesus already knows him. Jesus responds by saying, "You believe because I told you I saw you under the fig tree? You will see greater things than this."

My own journey reflects this same progression: while I first drew near to Him for a specific reason or a single answered prayer, I soon discovered that faith demands a deeper surrender. As I dove deeper, I began to see the true depth of who He is.

Our journeys are rarely a straight path; they are intertwined with highs and lows. But through it all, Jesus has invited us to believe a little more, draw a little closer, and trust that He has more in store. By responding to His invitation last December, today I can stand in awe and worship for all that He has done for me. Not just in recent years, but every year that He has shown up as my Savior. I have since moved past the surface level of wavering faith into the profound reality Jesus promised, that He would draw near.

I have indeed witnessed the "greater things" Jesus spoke of, more than I could ever imagine. I have seen heaven open and the King come down.

Psalm 19:14